[in which Vael makes way too long a reply to Vossk.]
One by one, the Utopians unfollow me. Guess I’m dystopian or something. Oh well. Utopians are pricks that judge other people and turn their noses up at them. So I’m turning my nose up at YOU. I’m too good for you.
Still one left.
Hey, it’s your turn.
I’m sure I’ve offended you in some way by now.
I don’t think you realize the full irony of your statement. You’re putting yourself into the same category as one Utopian you got a bad gist from.
But no, it’s just that you’ve exited the loop that was our social circle. The Utopian thing is, for the most part, dead now. You can’t tell me you’re proud of everything you did during that time either.
Do you remember the conversation we had about how we hoped we would change for the best? You have.
First off, for the nth time, it’s not a capital U.
I was going to say, “I’m not sure why you think utopianism is dead.”, but I know why. You were involved in the discussions of the days of old, (“that time”) where I had my meatspace friends involved in The Utopian Army. Even have a business card for it. We’d have group chats and even last summer I referred to our group as the utopians. Which, by definition, was true. Since I’m not sure you’ve read the latest and greatest utopianism article - which I believe deserves no more revisioning and is in a very fair and acceptable state - I’ll summarize our beliefs for you and all readers.
Set some goals for yourself, strive to attain those goals, and come out of it as a better person/human. Motivation. Ambition. Don’t 9-5 your life away, and don’t be an asshole. Constantly learn and be ready to have your ideas challenged, as well as challenge others. That’s about it. It’s so simple, and not alienating at all. Previously the utopian article tried to set a standard for morals, but everyone differed on it, and ultimately it wasn’t my job to tell you what to believe. Utopianism is written to classify a basic set of beliefs. You don’t have to believe that killing prisoners is best for the world, or that we shouldn’t help people who aren’t bleeding utopianism. Just help the world spin.
So utopianism is dead - sorry, what exactly does that mean? The concept of not being a lazy jackassed piece of shit is dead?
I really have to question why you feel you have the right to say utopianism is dead when you haven’t been paying attention to us. Eve tried to message you on Facebook, no response. I haven’t really gone out of my way to talk to you, but our personalities are bit different from when I met you on xfire three years ago.
My best guess is that you seem to have discovered the pleasures of meatspace, and I definitely got the holier-than-thou attitude from you pretty much every time I talked to you before I just decided to stop talking to you. A few of my old friends were holier-than-thou about loving meatspace, so maybe that adds some bias for believing you’re that way. I’m not impressed by your alexithymia (recent 5-star word I learned) and I saw you becoming the same arrogant/conceited jerks they are, so that’s my terribad utopian judgment.
Though one thing you said is true: “You’re putting yourself into the same category as one Utopian you got a bad gist from.”
I am way too fanatical with this shit. I got a job and just learned to tune people out, I can’t stand them anymore. Being referred to as a “kid” by people who are much older than me yet still haven’t mastered grammar, just because of my age. Learning psychology and seeing how, in fact, I was raised poorly by my own parents. Looking at the wasted potential of everyone. We’re such a garbage hedonistic generation that I fear for the child we’re raising.
I should not be the measure of a perfect utopian. Yes, I work hard. I don’t make things that suck. I try to help out whoever I can as long as I feel they’re worth it. But, because of my hatred for others, I have no patience for anyone who isn’t bleeding utopianism, because they’ll end up pissing me off. It’s a miracle that I’ve found Eve, because no one else could stand me. What oh-dontbeshy says is true: I do judge people. I base my judgements on what I’ve dealt with in the past. I just don’t try to debate with people who say “in my opinion” anymore. :/
The fact is that while I’m pleasant to deal with and give everyone a shot, most people annoy me too much. I don’t let anything slide, not even for myself, and because of this I’ve become who I am today… I still feel like saving Eve and our children from eternal poverty was the right thing to do, I could never say I’m nothing but a good person. I just… hate people. I hope one day to learn to not let things bother me as much, but for now I can’t even imagine setting that as a goal for myself given my situations I’m in.
If you want a model utopian, look at Demi Victus.
PS: I wasn’t offended by anything you did, oh-dontbeshy. Just disappointed. Also I forgot your name, I think it’s Tori but D: ya
PPS: black coat network is still happening of course, but I’m sure Vossk will be to busy to join us.
(Source: toriiilynnwhite)
